Posted in emotions, portion control on 30 June 2006 | No Comments »
What a messy day. My work was hard and intense today, and I barely had time to think. Trying to decide if I need to make a 6000 mile trip next week, looking forward to future objectives, trying to make a difference during transitional times, this is all hard.
But I’m happy to have the opportunity, [...]
Posted in emotions, weight loss and diets on 30 June 2006 | No Comments »
I wondered what would happen when the scale arrived. After probably 10 years without one, during my recovery from my ED, I was concerned that I would obsess. But since I am moving from recovery to weight reduction, it was time. I had replaced obsession over the weight with obsession over detecting if I had [...]
Posted in affirmations on 29 June 2006 | No Comments »
Have I stopped dieting, or have I started normal eating?
Have I stopped beating myself up psychologically, or have I started treating myself with kindness and compassion?
Semantics, perhaps. But words do impact lives. Think Martin Luther King. Think Lucy MacDonald, who has collected the wisdom of women around the world. See http://lucymacdonald.com/files/Positive%20Quotes%20by%20women%20and%20for%20w…
Sandra Bierig said, “To accept [...]
Posted in binging, intuitive eating on 29 June 2006 | No Comments »
Yesterday I chose to not experiment with any other diet rules. The one thing I want more than anything else is to not be wrapped up in the binge eating disorder again. While I don’t specifically know the triggers, early symptoms are clear. When I shut my brain down and eat, or make a quick [...]
Posted in binging, portion control on 28 June 2006 | No Comments »
Wow. That actually sneaked up on me. But I’m not going to let anyone or anything take my free will away from me. This will be on my terms.
Who woulda thought it? I was going along, happily non-dieting. A little therapy conquers my self-hatred, and then I notice I’m starting to naturally lose a little [...]
Posted in emotions, portion control on 27 June 2006 | No Comments »
The long term results of my low GI lunch are as follows.
I stayed full but not stuffed all afternoon. No desire for a snack - did not even eat my banana. When I got home, I ate less for dinner than usual.
Most of this I attribute to the low GI meal, primarily because it was [...]
Posted in hunger on 27 June 2006 | No Comments »
After planning to eat a low GI lunch, I can report in and say that it happened. I increased the low GI foods (salad), switched to vinegar based dressing, had a good portion of protein and kept potatoes low. It was quite filling and well-balanced. I usually do achieve a good balance at lunchtime. For [...]
Posted in Austen, movies and misc on 27 June 2006 | No Comments »
Bruno the bear was killed yesterday.
See http://www.dw-world.de/dw/article/0,2144,2068219,00.html
He was a brown bear, the first to re-enter Germany in over 170 years. But he was marauding, killing animals for sport as well as food, and was becoming too comfortable with people and civilization. So they hunted him wiht tranquilizers and scientists. At a cost of probably more [...]
Posted in weight loss and diets on 27 June 2006 | No Comments »
Last night I bought a scale. It should arrive within a week, and I can start weighing myself. This will be the first time in probably 10 years I have wanted a scale in my house. Even though I am confident that I have chosen this rationally, I have no problems with throwing it out [...]
Posted in emotions on 26 June 2006 | No Comments »
365 is the number of pounds I weighed when I was in the hospital earlier this year. After spending several years learning about non-dieting, I decided it wasn’t stopping my slow but steady weight gain.
History: The further away from my dysfunctional family I came, the more weight I lost. One day I decided to follow [...]
