Exercise actually helps

Weird to think that I have actually experienced a situation in which exercise made me feel better. Previously, I exercised because I “had” to, or because it was fun. But yesterday’s blue funk just was not going away. BBTs kept coming and I was quite challenged to get rid of them. The good ol’ ABCDEF was not really dispersing them on a permanent basis.

This morning, or rather the middle of the night, I woke up and had a craving. Not chocolate cake, but exercise.  Real, move my body, get the blood pumping exercise. So I indulged myself and did half an hour of aerobics while I watched a movie. After the half hour was over, I sat down, drank some water, and relaxed.  I really, truly felt better. After I slept some more, I noticed that I felt emotionally better too. It’s not complete - I can’t say that the BBTs are gone, but it’s much improved. I can move without hating my size, even though I’m still uncomfortable about appearing in front of anyone.  And I’m still dreading the airplane rides.

However, I do understand that some movement is going to keep me at least a little up emotionally. Now comes the question of what to do daily. If I can find another half hour somewhere that’s enjoyable without being threatening, it would be best. It’s probably too hot to go outside tonight.

I like my lunch meals of high veggies, less everything else. I’ve pretty well decided that 2 ping pong ball sized potatoes is enough. A small salad bowl is also very good, and I’m using ever less dressing. Chocolate pudding every Tuesday is one of my favorites.