Posted in portion control on 30 November 2006 | No Comments »
End of November, my first full month on Sparkpeople. Time to measure results and give myself a reward (or 6).
Interesting, reading the Reports on the SP website. I’m not impressed that it displayed number of calories burned by cardio, when I really was paying attention to time spent.
8 glasses of water a day was achieved [...]
Posted in binging on 30 November 2006 | No Comments »
Reality sucks. That I know, because I spent most of my life compartmentalizing real life from my over-idealized notion of what life should be like. The last couple of years have been about dealing with that, and as a corollary, reducing my compulsion to eat. It is really true for me that my compulsive eating [...]
Posted in weight loss and diets on 29 November 2006 | No Comments »
Whiny stuff from the last post aside, I actually got started on the project!!! I won’t admit that it wasn’t hard, but I took a break, went to the bathroom, panicked mildly, realized that there was STILL nothing else to do except do the next task, and went back to my desk.
Then I wrote my list [...]
Posted in cognitive behavioral therapy CBT on 29 November 2006 | No Comments »
True confessions: if there’s any single way in which I give into my compulsions most, it’s worry. I worry altogether too much, and when a really big deal happens, I pretty much go ballistic.
Take yesterday, for example. In a 1 on 1 with my boss, he gave me exactly what I wanted - a real chance. [...]
Posted in emotions on 28 November 2006 | No Comments »
Sounds horrible, doesn’t it? But it’s not. The abuse I was subjected to as a child was not the unspeakable horror of sexual abuse, nor was it deliberate emotional abuse. Rather, it was beatings, neglect and emotional abuse stemming from my family’s inability to deal with their own lives. It doesn’t make it any less [...]
Posted in weight loss and diets on 25 November 2006 | No Comments »
Food just has not tasted good today. Normally Saturdays are fresh bread day, and I usually enjoy a fabulous turkey sandwich made with special rolls from a secret recipe from our local bakery.
This week the perfect turkey sandwich didn’t taste so good. I finished it anyway, and figured that the evening’s soup would still be [...]
Posted in Austen, movies and misc on 24 November 2006 | No Comments »
Dear Daughter made a right of passage today. She wanted to go visit a friend for a birthday party, three hours away by train. So she made the trip safely, and is now partying with about 70 other older teens.
The interesting part about this in Germany is we were able to sign a form that [...]
Posted in cognitive behavioral therapy CBT on 23 November 2006 | No Comments »
Check out Pastaqueen’s blog entry: http://www.pastaqueen.com/halfofme/archives/2006/11/do_we_choose_to.html#comm…
She wrote an essay on this very subject that’s powerful and convincing.
I did not choose to be fat. I did choose to comfort myself through some very difficult times. The only way I knew to comfort myself was food. That became a lifelong habit that I only learned a year [...]
Posted in cognitive behavioral therapy CBT on 22 November 2006 | No Comments »
Yesterday I ate a lot, and the scale showed it this morning MOL, although perfectly within the normal range of variance. It’s not something I’m specifically worried about, because I ate well - it’s just that lettuce tends to hang around in my system for a while, and I enjoyed a big salad yesterday. It was [...]
Posted in binging on 22 November 2006 | No Comments »
Just the deleted scenes had me sobbing from empathy last night. Too bad I can’t receive it here in Europe.
Check out http://www.hbo.com/docs/programs/thin/ for more information.
What really spoke to me as a former compulsive eater was the anger and frustration of the women. They know their illness well, but find it very difficult to take the next [...]
