Giving up stocking up

When I was doing only the Overcoming Overeating process, I got very good at stocking up my FFFs, those Formerly Forbidden Foods. It’s a REALLY good principle, because it gives you the opportunity to stop hiding your true emotions with food cravings. If your favorite foods are always there, you can’t suppress your emotions about [...]

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Weigh In: No change from last week

The last few weeks have been tumultuous. I stopped doing Sparkpeople, except to check in daily, stopped weighing every day, had a miserable crisis at work, and stopped exercising.
It ended with me deciding to really cut back on my data tracking, and I settled into a couple of weeks of intuitive eating without maniacally checking [...]

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14 pounds a year from emotional eating

On Friday, I decided to track my emotions, just to see what I’d learn. During lunch with DH, I learned that he is a cold fish, while I am a seething volcano of emotions. As lunch ended, I listed the emotions I had just experienced, and asked him about his. “None,” he replied.
“None!?! How can [...]

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Three Beautiful Things (thanks to 3BT blogger)

The blogger at Three Beautiful Things has a wonderful idea, and since I’m a little mellow tonight, I thought I’d honor her with my 3BT of today.

My husband went to kiss me tonight and missed. Ever persistent, he didn’t give up until he landed one smack dab on my lips
DH and Dear Daughter sitting at [...]

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Change of direction

Last week I spent most of my time not measuring, not weighing, not tracking goals, not thinking about what I’m going to eat. Yesterday I weighed in and didn’t have any gain, which was satisfying, because it showed me that I can handle life without being obsessed by either the eating disorder or the recovery [...]

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It’s only called “The Secret” because it’s too stupid to make public

In spite of the common bulls#!t recently spouted by the authors of The Secret, I do understand and believe in the power of positive thinking. A person can make huge changes in their thinking just by choosing to focus on something they want rather than something they don’t want.

What’s wrong with the book? The [...]

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Nigel’s speech

Here’s the scene that helped me get through my work anger and frustration:
Andrea: She hates me, Nigel.

Nigel: And that’s my problem because—Oh, wait. No, it’s not my problem.

Andrea: I don’t know what else I can do because if I do something right, it’s unacknowledged. She doesn’t even say thank you. But if I do [...]

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Pattern recognition

While reviewing my anger management activities last night, I noticed a pattern: things in sets of 3.

Had to have exactly 3 packages of ketchup
Bought 3 DVDs
Ate 3 different foods
Did 3 activities: walk, shop, eat
Kept writing in groups of 3 words/ideas

Wondering why, it suddenly occured to me: 3 sucky projects, 3 responses to the anger. How [...]

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Anger and Stanley Tucci

Monday stats:

Breakfast: low hunger, slight portion control, medium volume of food
Lunch: high hunger, excellent portion control, medium volume of food
Snack: no hunger, no portion control (just finished it without checking fullness), medium volume of food
Dinner: high hunger, portion control, high volume of food
Anger at my work situation: off the charts

By the end of my work [...]

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Look what I’m reading

A nice fantasy, with strong female characters. I’ve just started, so I don’t know how it will turn out yet. Tinna’s Promise
I love female characters, especially ones that overcome their obstacles. Some of my favorite books are biographies, but I especially like the ones about normal people in great historical circumstances. The book I’m just [...]

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