Change of direction

Last week I spent most of my time not measuring, not weighing, not tracking goals, not thinking about what I’m going to eat. Yesterday I weighed in and didn’t have any gain, which was satisfying, because it showed me that I can handle life without being obsessed by either the eating disorder or the recovery from it or the building of new habits.

This wasn’t something I chose with deliberation, it just sort of happened. Work has been such shit for the past couple of weeks that I had no energy for anything else. Ultimately I chose to take last week off from self-improvement and do nothing but nurture myself.

I guess I gave up trying so hard. Don’t know what to think about that yet. Ideas?