I’m hungry

Really hungry. Unless of course I’m thirsty or there’s something else going on.

I can reasonably expect to be thirsty. Lately I’ve been drinking a lot of water, but this morning I drank very little. For some reason, I wanted to get up early, in spite of being quite tired from aquajogging last night.

Aah. That’s another point - I’m tired, quite tired actually. There’s a long day ahead of me as well, with work tasks I don’t want to do but are urgent. And on top of it all, my insane boss had a teleconference with me this morning, which is midnight her time. That teleconference prevented me from going to our site breakfast, and when I walked by later, there was no food left. Bummer. That makes me feel a little deprived as well.

Deprived. There’s a hot button for me. Poverty as a child made me sensitive to missing out on things, so I’m quite careful to provide as many good things for myself as I can. When I have to miss out, I can be overly disappointed.

Real hunger. Breakfast was my “new normal” portion, and dinner last night wasn’t high in volume, so I’m also tolerably hungry for real.

Thirst. Tired. Hunger. Deprivation. Wow. That’s like the evil axis of overeating, as long as you ignore the fact that 4 items don’t make an axis, they make a 3 dimensional, maybe 4 dimensional space. Sounds like tired’s talking now.

OK, enough is enough. I have plenty of reasons to be hungry, so I better eat something. Ick. I’ve got granola bars, candy and chocolate, and one German equivalent of a Moon Pie. Just 1.5 hours to lunch. Hmmm. What do I want to do? I choose to drink water for a while, and see what happens. A piece of hard candy will give me a sugar boost. My goals are mixed: I want to serve my hunger, but also want to have a good warm lunch, and keep weight loss going as by not overeating. Any sort of intense snack like a roll or piece of cheese would be too much at the moment. OK, water and candy it is. Werther’s butter toffee hard candy. Yum.

1. In spite of these hunger feelings, whatever their cause, I’m not yelling at myself.
2. This blogging/journaling activity really helps me work through an issue without getting too upset about it.
3. Even though many decisions, like the hunger one above, can’t please all of my desires, I’m pleased that I can choose without regret.
4. Aquajogging is so much better now that I choose to go for fun rather than a sense of obligation.
5. My candy tastes good, and I can feel the sugar pep a bit as well