Taking action
29 August 2007 by livingrainbowcolor
Yesterday I took action towards my new habits. After not being able to figure out why I got stuck on the sofa last night, I decided that it didn’t matter much why, but it matters if I take action, so I did.
When I got home, I was sleepy, due to a short night, so I napped a bit, but I was determined to not waste away the rest of the evening. Tasks included:
- Ordering some clothes for myself
- Cleaning up my hard drive from some pictures
- Really looking at pictures of myself (sort of mirror work)
- Sewing a sachet with lavender I bought in Provence
Reviewing the pictures of myself was the most disturbing. It really brought me into reality, showing me how old I really am, that my skin shows my age, no airbrushed fantasies here. I accept who I am and love that I can look at myself calmly without binge eating.
I’m not going to take this any more. I’m tired of molly-coddling myself and want to do more, create more, be more.
This morning when I awoke, I wanted to exercise, so I combined that with another passion, getting my house in order. Instead of jogging or aerobics, I chose to clean the kitchen floor, first on my knees (way too hard on them), then aggressively with a brush, soapy water and drying it afterward. Now I feel that it’s really clean. And I finished, breathing hard with a nicely raised pulse. Good workout, good clean floor. Two birds with one stone.
My positives:
- This energy is a new feeling and I like it
- I’m thrilled that the photo work didn’t send me off into a bout of self-criticism
- I’m happy that the floor is clean, and that I did it myself
- I love the feeling of power this gives me
- I like the combination of activities I did last night
