Posted in binging, work on 29 October 2007 | No Comments »
Suspension of disbelief - this is one thing I am really good at. Lars is even better. While I spent my childhood pretending my miserable world wasn’t so miserable, Lars found a way to do the same as an adult, and find his way out the other side. Sweet movie, and well worth catching while [...]
Posted in affirmations, binging, cognitive behavioral therapy CBT, portion control, positive self-talk on 23 October 2007 | No Comments »
When I recognized that diets would not solve my ED, I felt anxiety. Anxiety over everything was actually the core of my problem, because eating was the only solution I knew.
Slowly I began to learn new techniques, but the most important thought change I made was to be willing to accept even the smallest attempt [...]
Posted in affirmations on 22 October 2007 | 1 Comment »
Great post from Feministing: Ten Things You an Do Right Now to Love your Body. I love it! And I’m glad I’m doing these things.
Here are some more of my very own.
Stop doing things that hurt.
Sing out loud. Sing out long.
Learn to tell yourself “enough.” And mean it.
Create things that you think are beautiful. Keep [...]
Posted in Austen, movies and misc, affirmations, emotions, work on 22 October 2007 | No Comments »
My miserable Monday ended on a tired note, but I’ve taken action to do things that are highly comforting.
It was a hard day at work, and I left late and exhausted. At home, a small glass of wine, covering up in my favorite blanket and curling up in a semi-fetal position all felt good. I [...]
Posted in positive self-talk, weight loss and diets, work on 22 October 2007 | 1 Comment »
Twenty minutes at work, and already I’ve given in to a pity party. There’s a whole pile of crap inside my head that I haven’t moved past yet, and it makes me sick to my stomach.
I’ve quickly turned on my upbeat music and that’s the only thing that’s helped since yesterday evening. Song 1: Don’t [...]
Posted in emotions, hunger, intuitive eating, jon stewart and stephen colbert on 20 October 2007 | No Comments »
My emotions around my not getting the job have stayed the same as my last post. I’m totally happy that I didn’t get it. I own my mistakes, which include interviewing badly and not choosing properly before applying. And I’m perfectly content to move on.
Eating is one of the surest signs of moments in which [...]
Posted in affirmations, emotions, work on 16 October 2007 | No Comments »
Quite frankly, I’m stunned. I still fully expect to have an emotional release (i.e. tears) sometime soon, but I just finished a feedback interview from the hiring manager. Actually we finished the discussion about an hour ago, so I’ve had some coming-down time already, which I spent drinking coffee with DH.
Hiring manager gave me good [...]
Posted in emotions, work on 16 October 2007 | No Comments »
It all seems to be happening to me, at least in a tame sort of way.
Yesterday the hiring manager set up a lunch appointment with me today to give me “feedback.” Normally, this guy’s English is not good enough for the subtlety of the word “feedback” which would be normally interpreted as “you didn’t get [...]
Posted in affirmations, emotions, work, tagged Daniel Gilbert, happiness on 12 October 2007 | No Comments »
Still no news on not getting the job I expect to not get. But my attitude is much better - I’m actually assessing value on both jobs and neither of them look so bad.
Daniel Gilbert, Harvard professor and author of some book or other on happiness, lifted the formula of making choices that will maximize [...]
Posted in Pathway to Normal Eating, goals on 12 October 2007 | No Comments »
Setting goals can be intimidating for an ED person. For me, any kind of food limiting goal was impossible. Diets were simply one big long cheat, pretending to want to diet away my fat, yet almost never eating according to the plan. The one time I lost on a diet program, I lost over 100 [...]
