Something broke through tonight, but I’m not sure what.
The past few days I’ve been eating in odd patterns. Sometimes I’ve experimented with eating “barely-full” portions, comfortably full portions, and not eating when I’m not hungry. I had a couple of vegetarian days, and did a great job of portion control early in the week.
Then things exploded, and I began eating everything in sight. Small portions of many different things resulted in eating first a pots de creme dessert, followed by a golf-ball sized scoop of ice cream. Then they served an Indian bean dish as an entree at work, and I ate a huge serving. Yesterday I craved a frozen pizza, and baked it. I wasn’t hungry again until late afternoon today. Then I ate McDonald’s with DD, my first Mickey D’s in months. What I learned:
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Sometimes it feels nice to feel quite full
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Sometimes it feels nice to skip a meal
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Neither the pizza nor the McD’s tasted very good
Tonight I wondered what it all meant. Part of it was proving to myself that I would still feed myself anything I wanted, even if it were junk food. Part of it was hunger, since I’d been eating noticeably less than normal. Maybe part of it was proving to myself that I don’t miss those things I’d been not eating.
In any case, it’s been an interesting week, and I’ve come out the better for it. More learning about my eating intuition, and, who knows, maybe even a little lost weight.
It really helps me reading your IE experiences. It’s such a new world to me that I wonder what’s “normal” for a person starting to go through the IE process.
There’s diet blogs everywhere. On weight watchers I could read tons of blogs of people going through the same things. In that sense, I never felt alone.
IE is harder to find blogs for, and really hard to talk to people about if they are dieting. So thank you for sharing the things you are going through