Sending “clumsy” out into the universe
5 May 2008 by livingrainbowcolor
Man-o-man, this is a dangerous day for me. I woke up normally after a 4 day long weekend. I”m fully refreshed, ready to work.
As we hop into the car to drive Dear Daughter to school, I start to make little critical comments. First, Dear Hubby, who used to criticize DD for not fastening her seat belt timely, did not fasten his timely. And he forgot to carry something to the car.
So I’m speaking up about all of these admittedly trivial things, when I recognize it for what it is - my critical voice. When we drove past the local greengrocer, and I commented out loud that he needed to wash his windows, I knew I was over the top.
The next half hour I spent trying to change my words, and my thoughts as well. I’m not quite there yet, but I do at least remember to think twice before speaking today.
What was the root cause of this? Two things, I believe.
One, I watched a dozen Youtube/Dailymotion videos before leaving home. Most of them were about teenagers doing stupid things, occasionally resulting in broken bones. I did not yell back at the TV, telling them how idiotic that was (I love yelling at the TV, very therapeutic, and no one yells back). Therefore, I had a bit of criticism built up in my system.
Second, work is going to be rather high-stress today, but still pretty good. I have to teach a class, which means a performance, and I’m not quite ready for that. At least it’s a friendly audience.
Thanks to those reasons, I can give myself a break (oops, someone in the office just dropped and broke a coffee cup. Wonder if I’m sending “clumsy” out into the universe today
If you’ve experienced extra clumsiness today, I apologize. I’ll work on sending graceful out in the universe tomorrow, so you can look forward to that.
In conclusion, I’m going to be extra forgiving of myself and others today, and KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT. And not hold anything breakable.