When I feel good and occupied with my life, I don’t overeat. Therefore, the more good feelings I can bring into my life, the easier it will be for me to eat intuitively.
Here’s a list I just made of things I like and do not like. My intent is to recognize the Do Not side, and [...]
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In the height of my eating disorder, decisions were a vicious circle. First I would encounter a problem which had no clear answers, worry about it until I absolutely had to make a decision, then decide relatively quickly. The decision was followed by more worry about whether it was the right decision or not, and [...]
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To make permanent change in your life, you need two types of motivation. One is motivation to make you want to leave your current state, and two is motivation of the new state you want to have.
In order to strengthen the second motivation, I choose to frequently think about (and write about) how I will [...]
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Overwhelmed by work is my current state. I know I have to keep taking action., but I feel paralyzed. Why? Habit. There are several tasks I can do, and I have lots of freedom to choose what I do every day. There’s even one task that I prefer to do. But I’m still frozen.
My wants [...]
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See also my post on How to stop eating when you’re not hungry
Whenever you eat mindlessly or when you are not hungry, the root cause is simple: you are responding to your mind’s needs rather than your physical needs. This might be emotional eating, or habit eating, or whatever. The fact remains, it’s not what [...]
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Posted in emotions on 2 April 2008 | No Comments »
Yesterday, at least, I sat in the restroom and held my stomach for half an hour. Uncomfortable, yes, but it was the only thing I could figure out to do when I was coming down from a stressful event.
One of my jobs is to help others improve their processes. One guy has been working here [...]
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One of my friends gave me a copy of her Easter picture to post - a Lindt take on a well-known internet cartoon.
Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it. - Bill Cosby
I’ve spent the first half of my long weekend nurturing myself with some spiritual support. Mostly I’ve been doing [...]
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Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength. - Arnold Schwarzenegger
Yesterday was a great day for coping. I felt on top of the world all day, and didn’t need any throw-away therapy until nearly the end of the afternoon. Even then [...]
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My compulsion to eat started when I was very young. While I have no idea when it actually started, it may have been as early as when I was a baby.
Pregnant with me when she finally left my abusive father, my mother was not thrilled to go back home with 1.5 kids and live in [...]
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Posted in emotions on 7 March 2008 | 1 Comment »
Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live - Dorothy Thompson
I fear that if I get too good at losing weight, I will convert my binge eating disorder into anorexia.
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